Q: Would you tell me why the vital produced this physical sickness, fever?
A: It had no intention, the illness was simply a consequence of the vital depression.
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Q: You wish that I do not frequent P. So if the vital flees from P so much the better, instead of attachment there will be detachment.
A: No, the flight is the reverse of attachment, not its cure.
8.7.1936
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Q: I can neither go to P nor detach myself from P nor be without thought of P.
A: You have done well to score this paragraph, for it was all stupid. If your attempt to detach adds to your attachment, it shows that the effort is badly done, in a false way and without sincerity, and you have only to learn to do it better.
9.7.1936
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Sincerity: One can be perfectly so only when one is completely conscious. But keep up your will to be more and more perfectly sincere — and all will be well.
10.7.1936
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Q: Could you tell me what thought you had when you received my report?
A: I thought that your physical mind is terribly stupid and impertinent.
Q: Has it been always so or it has become like that?
A: No, it has always been so.
One must have a great detachment and much discernment to know that one’s physical mind is stupid.
14.7.1936
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Q: It has become very difficult not to yield to the vital. You alone can save me. It is dangerous.
A: No, no and no.
These are adverse suggestions to which you shall not listen.
14.7.1936
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Q: You see well how these suggestions have taken place in me and to undo them and rise above these movements has become a big problem.
A: That also is an illusion. If you think the contrary (“I am free, I have no attachments”) with enough persistence, the problem would be soon solved.
15.7.1936
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Q: Do you believe I have become inferior? Or rather all these things were already in me but I was not aware of them?
A: One always carries in oneself the germ of all that one is and does. But this germ can die before it is hatched and that is what ought to happen to undesirable things.
15.7.1936
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Q: Is it that all the higher parts are veiled by the lower and what one has gained is not lost but is always there behind?
A: Yes, exactly.
15.7.1936
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Q: O Mama, open my heart closed for long and make the peace, the love, the happiness flow and the force necessary to accomplish your divine will.
A: The great secret is to think correctly according to the deep truth.
15.7.1936
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Q: I aspire for thy grace to come and uplift me from the ordinary consciousness towards spirituality.
A: For the Grace to help you, you must fulfil the conditions and the first of them is to reject all doubt, however small it be. I repeat to you again you will do well to read again, with care and attention, the first two chapters of The Mother.
16.7.1936
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Q: Now I understand the surrender I have to make, but something in me refuses to surrender.
A: Remain firm in your will, use persuasion and, little by little, the revolting part will yield. It is by ignorance that it refuses to submit. This ignorance must be dissolved.
17.7.1936
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Q: Would you tell me which are the parts that have not yet surrendered or perhaps none has done so.
A: No, there are parts which have begun their surrender and that will go on increasing in every way.
18.7.1936
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Q: Would you tell me what still remains to be done to regain the right attitude so that the Grace may come again?
A: Be quiet and have confidence in the Grace. It is always there ready to help those who call it with a sincere heart.
18.7.1936
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Q: As long as I am in my room I am calm; but once I go out for work my mind gets agitated.
A: When you do your work you must attend your work only and not the people; you have no need to talk to them or busy yourself with them.
21.7.1936
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Q: I embrace you dear mama, before I go to bed.
A: I bless you, my dear child.
20.7.1936
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Q: O Divine Grace, come and help me, make me strong.
A: Yes, my help is with you and I want you to be strong and calm.
21.7.1936
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Q: Since morning I see that my consciousness is turned outwards. May thy Grace come lift me above ignorance and falsehood.
A: Do not worry yourself, persist in your effort to turn inward and you are sure to succeed.
22.7.1936
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Q: It looks to me that this time the physical consciousness does not turn towards Thee. I tried to remain calm. May thy Grace come and uplift me from the ordinary consciousness towards the psychic.
A: Yes, remain calm with perseverance and with a quiet aspiration towards the true Consciousness, you are sure to succeed if you keep this attitude.
23.7.1936
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Q: I want only one thing: the consciousness and the accomplishment of thy will. O Mother, I am yours and you will do what you choose of this being who aspires to be yours.
A: Very good — persist in this attitude and you are sure of victory.
24.7.1936
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Q: Does the universal justice hamper us when we try to rise above the universe?
A: In a certain manner, yes. Certainly to rise above the universe one must be entirely freed from this justice for it forms part of the universe.
25.7.1936
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Q: Can it be that kindness is received ill?
A: Yes, that is exactly what happens most often with human beings.
27.7.1936
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Q: By what forces is the universal justice supported?
A: By the universal nature.
27.7.1936
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Q: Enlighten my physical consciousness so that it obeys thy will.
A: That you have begun to be a little more conscious is already a sign that the Light can transmit its influence on the external consciousness.
27.7.1936
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Q: Several parts are in revolt, but my effort continues, one day I will have the victory.
A: Certainly, you must persist in the effort and the victory cannot fail to come.
29.7.1936
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Q: May the heart unfold itself and the soul become visible. Would you do that?
A: My force is on you so that it may be granted.
20.8.1936
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Q: O Mother, I call Thee. May Thy force come and uplift me from the ordinary consciousness towards the higher. I await Thy grace for, it seems to me, that alone can lift me up.
A: It is good to count on the Grace but the aspiration has to be intense and constant.
31.8.1936
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Q: O Mother, when shall I see thee in my heart?
A: Keep this aspiration very living and, surely, it will not delay.
3.9.1936
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Q: O my beloved, teach me to love Thee truly.
A: True love is to forget oneself.
5.9.1936
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Q: Sweet Mother, here are my ideas: He who tries to help others without being Thy worthy instrument insults Thee.
A: Yes.
Q: He who before loving Thee truly tries to love others deceives himself.
A: Yes.
Q: Is it true there is no harm in one’s taking help from another if he cannot approach you directly?
A: I cannot answer in a general way, it depends entirely on cases.
Q: Is it not that one should try to approach you and wait till you are reached instead of seeking help elsewhere?
A: Evidently that is wiser.
Q: Now I have come to believe that our idea of love for human beings must be got rid of; for at present it is not possible to have true and pure love and also it is not necessary.
A: Exactly.
Q: Mother, now I think neither of helping nor loving others.
A: That, indeed, is more prudent.
Q: I will do my best to be true to you in my words.
A: In your thoughts and actions also, I hope.
8.9.1936
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Q: Would you tell me why my inner vision does not grow further? As before, I see only forces in movement, in form of vibrations.
A: This kind of growth is not always constant. Surely that will come later on.
10.9.1936
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Q: I do not feel you within my heart but I see you above me. If my feeling is not imagination, would you tell me the difference between feeling you within the heart and above oneself?
A: No, it is not false.
In the heart it is a psychic contact, above the head, it is mental.
10.9.1936
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Q: Would you tell me in what part of the mind is your presence? What is the difference in the effect of your presence in the heart and above the body?
A: The higher mind — no difference in its effect.
11.9.1936
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Q: Am I not wrong in thinking I am far away from thy Grace? Am I not already under it? Without thy grace how could I feel thy presence?
A: Certainly you are wrong in thinking that you are far from the Grace.
11.9.1936
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The external consciousness has difficulty in keeping up the fire of aspiration burning always, with the same intensity. But, with will, one must watch over the purifying fire and reawaken it when it slumbers.
14.9.1936
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Q: Is it not true, O Mother, that I love you? I know that my love is neither pure, nor perfect, nor integral.
A: Yes, it is true, you love me; and you learn to love me better and better, more and more. It is this love that will open for you the door of identification.
15.9.1936
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Q: Is there room for reason in true love?
A: They can be together in some but generally they do not have much to do with each other.
18.9.1936
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Q: Mother, do you believe I have emotion?
A: Everyone has more or less.
19.9.1936
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Q: Is love like the tide and ebb of the sea, like emotion?
A: Vital love, yes, but not the psychic love which is invariable.
19.9.1936
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Q: Is it not true that one can feel thy presence even before having psychic love for thee?
A: It is the psychic above all that feels the Presence. But at times also the mind and the vital and even the physical perceive it.
22.9.1936
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To develop a philosophic mind you must methodically study philosophy, the different schools, their theories etc.
22.9.1936
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One must not do good in order to get a reward but for the pleasure of doing it. Then one is happy always whatever may happen.
23.9.1936
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It is not impossible to feel the Presence without having the psychic love. But that must be a rare case.
24.9.1936
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The extent to which you have love for me, it can only be the psychic love, but it is mixed in the external consciousness with mental and vital movements.
25.9.1936
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Q: Do you think my psychic love is never manifest without mixture?
A: The psychic being would have to become the absolute master of the entire being; when that comes to be, the consciousness can no more be veiled.
26.9.1936
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Q: What is that part in me that does not love you and appears indifferent to you?
A: It is the superficial consciousness which is generally occupied only with itself and hence closed to all that is not itself.
28.9.1936
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Q: My ideal of faith: to arrive at such a point that if you were to say it is midnight when it is midday it believes.
A: Evidently that is faith.
30.9.1936
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Q: What is it that has exhausted my love, happiness and peace?
A: The vital.
30.9.1936
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Q: What does the vital want? Why does it strike at my happiness?
A: The vital has no reason, it is absolutely unreasonable.
1.10.1936
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Q: Is it that all love and happiness that one has before the absolute mastery of the psychic being is always vital?
A: In any case always mixed.
2.10.1936
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Q: How can the vital be made reasonable?
A: In the same way as a child, by education.
2.10.1936
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Q: Is it good that I only study, and do not concentrate?
A: Yes, that is good. If you concentrate in the morning at pranam, in the evening during meditation, that is sufficient.
2.10.1936
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Complete and pure faith in the Truth is the best of all protections.
9.10.1936
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Q: Do you think there is in me a part that has complete and pure faith in the Truth?
A: Let us hope so.
Q: Which is that?
A: That can only be psychic.
10.10.1936
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Q: At times it appears that we have known you for ages, at times as if you were a stranger.
A: They are two different consciousnesses, one deep, the other superficial.
10.10.1936
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Q: Explanation of the flower “disinterested work”?
A: This flower means exactly all work done in all sincerity in consecration to the Divine.
13.10.1936
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Q: Is it not true that one must not think of one’s progress?
A: Certainly one must not worry oneself about it, but one must want to progress.
Q: What must I do to find out that you love me?
A: To give more importance to love than to being loved.
3.10.1936
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Q: Today you gave me the flower “psychic flame”. I do not fully follow what you want to tell me by it.
A: “Agni” is the will to progress, the flame of purification that burns away all obstacles and all difficulties. In giving you the flower I encourage you to let this burn in you.
15.10.1936
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Q: Today you gave me the flower “psychic centre”. What did you want to convey?
A: It is to encourage you to make an effort for awakening the contact with the psychic being.
16.10.1936
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Q: Today you gave the flower “psychic centre” but at present I aspire only for the Divine Grace. How to do both the things at the same time?
A: To follow the sadhana, one must do, if necessary, a dozen things at a time.
19.10.1936
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Q: Today you gave the flower “supramental light in the subconscient”. What do you mean to tell me?
A: The conscious light must penetrate into the subconscient.
20.10.1936
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Q: Mother, do not leave me and see that I do not leave you. From where do these prayers come?
A: The first prayer comes from an emotional part of the mind, the second (which is truer) comes from a part of the mind open to the psychic light.
20.10.1936
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Q: What did you mean to tell me in giving me the flower “protection”?
A: The protection is there. It is therefore for you to know how to profit by it.
22.10.1936
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Q: Mother, is there truly suffering in our yoga? Those who suffer, do they suffer because of difficulties in yoga?
A: No. They suffer, generally, because of want of sincerity.
Q: Or perhaps, they suffer because they invent suffering. They want to satisfy something by suffering.
A: Yes, that also happens.
Q: All suffering in this yoga looks to me imaginary.
A: Yes.
22.10.1936
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Q: What is it that suffers? The vital? Because one does not satisfy desires?
A: Most often. But it manages to suffer even when desires are satisfied.
Q: If one understands the cause of suffering, suffering is no more.
A: Exactly.
Q: It is by our stupidity that we suffer.
A: Generally, it is so.
22.10.1936
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Q: Do I not always approach you with desires?
A: You come to me thinking almost exclusively of yourself.
23.10.1936
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Q: Is it natural or do I think of myself because I am too egoistic?
A: In the ordinary life, that is perfectly natural, it is extremely rare to be otherwise.
24.10.1936
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Q: Does my whole external being think of itself only?
A: Relates all to itself, and ego-centric. Does not deal with things in themselves but with them as related to itself.
24.10.1936
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Q: I had believed that I was not so egoistic.
A: The whole physical nature everywhere and in all, is thoroughly egoistic till it is spiritualised — that is rare.
24.10.1936
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Q: I thank you very much for telling this to me. And I believe it is for this reason that I see you indifferent, that I do not see your love.
A: Surely, instead of thinking of the love I give you or which you would like me to give you, if you were to think of the love you wish to have for me, you would be more open and receptive.
Q: I think it is only your grace that can teach me to forget myself and think only of you.
A: You must also exert your will.
24.10.1936
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Q: Today I feel fatigued though I have slept well.
A: Probably it is because you have done fatiguing things during the sleep.
Q: Would you say what kind of fatiguing things?
A: Fatigue in the body is a physical transcription that comes from certain activities and contact in the vital. One can, during one’s sleep go to the worst places of the vital and meet very bad beings.
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Q: Then, what should be my aspiration at present?
A: That the consciousness may grow, that you will affirm and that your consecration to the Divine become more and more sincere.
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to be continued…
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