Even aspiration seems impossible now!
Perhaps your aspiration was associated with some mental push — a quiet aspiration or will is always possible even in the worst inertia.
Was it not a mistake on my part to associate aspiration with a mental push? What is the remedy for it now?
I did not say it was a mistake — only that there can be a still aspiration without the mental push.
Is a mental push necessary in everybody’s sadhana, particularly in the beginning?
There generally is a mental push from the beginning of the sadhana.
So long as there is not a constant action of the Force from above or else a deeper Will from within, the mental will is necessary.
Will you not teach me how to aspire properly so that there may be no mental push in it?
A quiet prayer or remembrance of the object of aspiration without a pull for results is the way for doing that. If along with that, there is a faith that it is sure to come, it is the best for this condition.
Is it wrong to make an effort to respond to the light that is pressing to descend?
No, but when you make the effort you will naturally become conscious of whatever resistance there may be to the effort.
When there is the free flow there is neither effort nor resistance.