April 23, 1914 (PM 047)

This Prayer once again teaches us the right state to be in with regard to our routine of life and the ease and peace that comes with surrender.

April 23, 1914

ALL rules have vanished, the regularity of the discipline has disappeared, all effort has ceased; not by my own will, not, I think, by negligence either, but because the circumstances conspire to make it so. It seems to me that this inner will, always alert, which is like a steersman at the helm, has evaporated or fallen asleep, and my being is only something peacefully surrendered which lets itself be carried by the current. Up to the present, it seems to me that the course has been in a straight line, and I would keep the hope that it is Thou, O Lord, who guidest the current; but certainly if I have sinned sometimes by too great a rigidity, a lack of suppleness and spontaneity, it might well be that now I sin by a contrary excess. I have come to accept peacefully the state in which I am and to say to myself that Thou wilt vouchsafe to me the true, the absolute Consciousness when Thou thinkest fit.

I regard all this mobile world as a play which unrolls itself, and I take part in this play with the same energy and conviction as if I believed it to be real and important. All this is quite new. But what is sure is that never were my mind and heart so completely at rest. What will come of it I know not.

But I trust to Thee, O Lord; Thou knowest best how to use and develop Thy instrument.

The text above is quoted from the Third Edition, 1954 (translation by Rishabhchand Samsukha)
This book is freely available at https://www.auro-ebooks.com/prayers-and-meditations-1954-edition/