We follow the trail of the Mother’s Yoga of the body where Her Body has become the symbolic representation of all bodies and Her Descent into Earth the Supreme’s sacrifice into Matter for its redemption. Step by step the Mother reveals the secret passage out of man to superhumanity that has been worked out in Her and through Her for all of us who can open with aspiration, trust and surrender.
Words of the Mother
(1) Night of April 12-13, 1970
Suddenly in the night I woke up with the full awareness of what we could call the Yoga of the world. The Supreme Love was manifesting through big pulsations, and each pulsation was bringing the world further in its manifestation. It was the formidable pulsations of the eternal, stupendous Love, only Love: each pulsation of the Love was carrying the universe further in its manifestation.
And the certitude that what is to be done is done and the Supramental Manifestation is realized.
Everything was Personal, nothing was individual.
This was going on and on and on and on….
The certitude that what is to be done is DONE.
All the results of the Falsehood had disappeared: Death was an illusion, Sickness was an illusion, Ignorance was an illusion – something that had no reality, no existence…. Only Love, and Love, and Love, and Love – immense, formidable, stupendous, carrying everything.
And how, how to express in the world? It was like an impossibility, because of the contradiction…. But then it came: “You have accepted that this world should know the Supramental Truth … and it will be expressed totally, integrally.” Yes, yes…
And the thing is DONE. (long silence)
The individual consciousness came back, just the sense of a limitation, limitation of pain; without that, no individual.
And we set off again on the way, certain of the Victory.
The heavens are ringing with chants of Victory!
Truth alone exists; Truth alone shall manifest. Onward! … Onward!
Gloire à Toi, Seigneur, Triomphateur suprême! (silence)
And now, to work.
Patience … endurance … perfect equanimity. And absolute faith. (silence)
Compared to the experience, whatever I say is nothing, nothing, nothing but words.
And our consciousness is the same, absolutely the same as the Lord’s. There was no difference, no difference at all….
We are That, we are That, we are That. (silence)
Later on, I will explain it more clearly. The instrument is not yet ready.
It is only the beginning.
(2) I was at the Origin – I WAS the Origin. For more than two hours, consciously, here on this bed, I was the Origin. And it was like gusts – like great gusts ending in explosions. And each one of these gusts was a span of the universe.
It was Love in its supreme essence – which has nothing to do with what people normally understand by that word.
And each gust of this essence of Love was dividing and spreading out … but they weren’t forces, it was far beyond the realm of forces. The universe as we know it no longer existed; it was a sort of bizarre illusion, bearing no relation to THAT. There was only the truth of the universe, with those great gusts of color – they were colored – great gusts colored with something that is the essence of color.
It was stupendous. I lived more than two hours like that, consciously.
And then a Voice was explaining everything to me (not exactly a Voice, but something that was Sri Aurobindo’s origin, like the most recent gust from the Origin). As the experience unfolded, this Voice explained each gust to me, each span of the universe; and then it explained how it all became like this (Mother makes a gesture of reversal): the distortion of the universe. And I was wondering how it was possible, with that Consciousness, that supreme Consciousness, to relate to the present, distorted universe.
How to make the connection without losing that Consciousness? A relationship between the two seemed impossible. And that’s when that sort of Voice reminded me of my promise, that I had promised to do the Work on earth and it would be done. “I promised to do the Work and it will be done.”
Then began the process of descent, and the Voice was explaining it to me – I lived through it all in detail, and it wasn’t pleasant. It took an hour and a half to change from that true Consciousness to the individual consciousness. Because throughout the experience this present individuality no longer existed, this body no longer existed, there were no more limits, I was no longer here – what was here was THE PERSON. An hour and a half was needed to return to the body-consciousness (not the physical consciousness but the body-consciousness), to the individual body-consciousness.
The first sign of the return to individuality was a prick of pain, a tiny point.
(3) And the consciousness is a limitless consciousness, like a material equivalent or expression of these gusts – it’s like waves, but waves with no …. Not separate waves, but a MOVEMENT of waves; a movement of what might be called material, corporeal waves, as vast as the earth, but not … not round, not flat…. Something giving a great sense of infinity but moving in waves. And this wave movement is the movement of life. And the consciousness (the body-consciousness, I suppose) floats along in this, with a sensation of eternal peace….But it’s not an expance – that’s not the word for it. It is a limitless movement, with a very harmonious and very tranquil rhythm, very vast, very calm. And movement is life itself.
I walk around the room, and that is what is walking.
(4) What I call Me (gesture high above), my consciousness, is completely outside the body. That’s what the consciousness of the body is (what I’ve just been describing), with only points of pain as reminders of what a body usually is: an ache here, an ache there, another ache here…. That’s what it’s like.
And this pain has a small and extremely limited life; it’s not general, it’s not a body that suffers: it is suffering that suffers. It’s a point, a point of pain – a scratch here. A sore there, things like that. That’s what is individual and suffers- it’s not the body that has a sore there, things like that. That’s what is individual and suffers- it’s not the body that has a sore, you understand.
It is difficult to express.
But that’s my experience. Yesterday I observed it with special care, to be able to tell you about it.
But are you making a distinction between the body-consciousness and the physical consciousness?…
Oh yes! The physical consciousness is something very complex; it includes the whole physical, conscious world.
My physical consciousness has been universalized for a long, long time, it encompasses all terrestrial movement; but the body is limited solely to this small concentration of substance (Mother touches her body) – that’s what I call the body-consciousness.
And when I said, “I have left the body,” It certainly didn’t mean I have left the physical consciousness – my overall contact with the terrestrial world has remained d the same. It concerns only the purely bodily aspect, the specific concretization or concentration of substance giving each of us a different body – a different APPEARANCE.
And a rather illusory appearance, besides. As soon as you rise to a certain height (I saw it quite clearly during that progressive reconcretization), this appearance quickly loses its reality. Our external appearance is very, very illusory. Our particular form (this one’s form, that one’s form), the form we see with our physical eyes is very superficial you know. From the vital world onwards, it’s completely different.
(5) Pain is the one thing I sense the way I used to. Food, for instance, taste, smell, vision, hearing – all that’s completely changed. They belong to another rhythm. And this condition has come progressively, like a crystallization of something behind the sense that doesn’t come from here- in taste, smell, vision, hearing, touch…. Except this one point…. Even the sense of touch is different now – but PAIN…
Pain is the old world.
It’s quite odd, you know; pain is like the symbolic (and rather too concrete!) sign of life in the Ignorance.
And even there I have had an instant (but it was like a flash – the flash of a new experience), an instant when pain disappeared into something else. It has happened three or four times. The pain suddenly became … something completely different (not a pleasant sensation, not that at all): another state of consciousness.
If that state remained, I would truly be free of the world as it is.
Nonetheless, people can still hear me, can’t they? And I can still see, but in a peculiar way – a very peculiar way. At times I see with greater precision than ever before (generally, as I told you the other day, I seem to see from behind a veil; that’s constant). I hear things that way too. Certain sounds…. On one occasion I noticed a sound, a seemingly imperceptible sound, coming from about a hundred yards away, and it seemed to be right here. All this has changed – I mean the whole way the organs function. Have the organs themselves changed, or is it their functioning? I don’t know. But they all obey another law – absolutely.
And I have the definite impression that that so-called illness was the external and ILLUSORY form of an indispensable process of transformation; without that so-called illness there could be no transformation- it is not an illness, I KNOW it: when people speak of “illness.” something in me laughs and says, :What a bunch of geese!”
(6) The whole story is a fairy tale.
And the only concrete thing left in this world – this world of illusion – is pain. It seems to me the very essence of Falsehood.
But what feels it feels it very concretely! … I clearly see it’s false, but that doesn’t stop my body from feeling it – and there is a reason: it is the battlefield.
I have even been forbidden to utilize my knowledge, power and force to annul the pain in the way I used to (and I used to do it very well). That has been totally forbidden. But I have seen that something else is in sight. Something else is in the making…. making…. It can’t be called a miracle because it’s not a miracle, but it’s something wonderful – the unknown…. When will it come? How will it come? I don’t know.
But it’s interesting.
(7) X has written expressing his ‘gratitude for all the revelations OF THE SUPREME’ he has had during his meditations with me.
This is something new he has accepted, because the Supreme doesn’t usually appear in tantrism – they are in contact with the Shakti and don’t bother about the Supreme. But here he has come to accept it.
He has tried very hard to understand. But his spiritual conception has remained like this: one can – one MUST – master life, and in life, to some extent, a certain adaptation to the higher forces can be achieved; but there is no question of transformation: the physical world remains the physical world. It can be a little better organized, more harmonious, but there is no question of something else, of divinization – no question at all.
And this is probably why there are things he can’t make out in his contact with me, because he simply doesn’t understand. For example, these physical disorders baffle him, they seem incompatible with my realization. As long as the question of transformation does not come into play, the realization I had was sufficient to establish a kind of very stable order – reaction against the transformative will is what causes these disorders. And this he does not understand – to him something seems not to be functioning properly. He must feel a contradiction between certain things he perceives in my consciousness and my contact with the material world. ‘This being this,’ he thinks, ‘that ought to be like that; so why…?’ He doesn’t understand.
(8) The only thing to do is not torment yourself and to say to the Lord (in all sincerity, of course), “It’s up to You. Rid me of this.” And it is very effective. Very effective. At times I have had old things like that dissolved in a flash; certain inveterate little habits – so stupid, but so ingrained you can’t get rid of them. Then, while doing japa or walking or meditating or whatever, suddenly the flame flares up and … (you have really had enough of it; it disgusts you, you want it to change, you really want the change) and you say to the Lord, “I can’t do it on my own.” (You very sincerely know you can’t do it; you have tried and tried and tried and have achieved exactly nothing – you can’t do it.) “Well then, I offer it to You – You do it.” Just like that. And all at once you see the thing fading away. It is simply wonderful. You know how Sri Aurobindo used to take away someone’s pain? It’s exactly the same. Certain habits bound up with the body’s formation.
(9) The body has been cradled by three Words….
Words that repeat themselves automatically, with no effort of will (but the body itself is quite aware that although these three particular Words happen to have been given to it, it might also have been something else – it was originally the choice of a higher Intelligence). This has become an automatic accompaniment. It is not so much the words in themselves as what they will represent and bring with them in their vibration…. I mean it would be quite inaccurate to say, “Only these Words are helpful,” no, not that. But they provide an accompaniment, an accompaniment of subtle, physical vibrations, which has built up a certain state or experience, a sort of association between the presence of those words and this movement of eternal Life, that undulating vibration.
Obviously, another center of consciousness, another (how shall I put it?) … another concretization, another amalgam, might- would of course-have another vibration.
In ordinary language, the vibration of the mantra is what helps the body to enter a certain state – but it is not particularly THIS mantra: it is the particular relationship established between a mantra (it has to be a true one, a mantra endowed with power) and the body. It surges up spontaneously: as soon as the body starts walking, it walks to the rhythm of those Words. And the rhythm of the Words quite naturally brings about a certain vibration, which in turn brings about the state.
But to say it’s these particular Words exclusively would be ridiculous. What counts is the sincerity of the aspiration, the exactness of the expression and the power; that is, the power that comes from the mantra being accepted. This is something very interesting: the mantra has been ACCEPTED by the supreme power as an effective tool, and so it automatically contains a certain force and power.92 But it is a purely personal phenomenon (the expression is the same, but the vibration are personal). A mantra leading one person straight to divine realization will leave another person cold and flat.
It represents what you put into it – your aspiration, mon petit. No, to me it can represent only ONE thing…. I call it “the Supreme,” because you have to call it something, but that Something is the farthest limit of our aspiration, our aspiration in every sense, in all directions, on all occasions. Something that is the supreme summit of our aspiration, WHATEVER that aspiration may be, in whatever direction, in whatever realm – beyond, really beyond, Something beyond any form of activity.
For me, the most concrete approach to this is through the vibration of pure Love; not love for something, a love you give or receive, but Love in itself: Love. It is something self-existent. And it is certainly the most concrete approach for me. (But it isn’t exclusive – it contains everything else within itself; it doesn’t exclude all the other approaches, all the other contacts.)
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