Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Kamala’s Correspondence with
Sri Aurobindo and the Mother

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Sri Aurobindo — Kamala Amin

February 20, 1933

Mother,

I had written before that I go to sleep in meditation. When I got up from meditation, I felt sleepy and idle. But now onwards, when I get up from meditation, I feel that I have not slept nor I had any thought. Then what did I do? I feel as if my body has become inert, it is not laziness.

It is not sleep – you go inside losing the outer consciousness, that is all. The body remains inert – the inner consciousness is elsewhere.

Mother,

Since 11.30 a.m. today; I feel like crying. Although I am trying to remain calm, I cannot. Mother, I wish to have peace with Thy Grace. Mother, Mother, keep Thy child at Thy feet. But what is the reason?

You should throw it off and remain quiet and open for the 21st.

Sri Aurobindo