Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 1. 1933

Letter ID: 1088

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

March 13, 1933

I dreamed that I had gone away from the Ashram, to my native place. My misery and utter helplessness cannot be described.

I think the significance of my dream was that life outside will be a hell for me. I am meant for this life and must stick to what I am called for.

Yes, obviously.

The hostile thoughts which may and do arise in me sometimes, can they not be partly due to my relatives’ thought-waves disturbing my poise and equilibrium?

Yes.

Then how to prevent them? By constant aspiration and your kind help and blessings?

Yes, and by elimination of old interests and attachments.

I read Galsworthy’s book Flowering Wilderness which is a very good one, still it did not help me, for I felt unhappy.

Why should something that belongs to quite another order of consciousness help the sadhana?

Can one be in a serious mood throughout the day?

It is quite possible – only it is not a mood, but a quiet and ardent consciousness.