Sri Aurobindo
Collected Poems
SABCL - Volume 5
VI. Poems in New Metres
Fragments
Death1 and the Traveller Fire
Flame that3 invadest my empire of sorrow wordless and sombre,
Arrow of azure light, golden-winged barbed with delight,
Who was it aimed thee into my4 crucified Soul that forever
Passions and beats in the womb of a universe built for its tomb?
I who am5 Death and live6 in the boundless cavern of Nature7,
I am Death8 who cannot die. A Shadow9 of Eternity,–
Vainly I throb10 in the stars11 that err12 through the13 void without feature,
Scintillant forms in14 a15 Nought vast without life, without thought.
O these stars16 that17 glitter and wander, God has devised them18
Burning nails in my heart, stones of my prisonhouse. God
Architect griefless19 relentless and mighty built and raised20 them21,
Clamped with them22 Time, His road to23 Nothingness, Death’s grim24 abode.
Fire of God, I passioned for life and have gathered but ashes –25
Life so that26 Death might die. Yea27, was it life that He gave me?
Glow28 of my darkness, reflex and nerve-beat devoured the29 devourer30,
Tortured31 by the flame an obscure will in me kindled to save me.
Life was32 a sorrowful throb of this33 Matter teaching it anguish,
Teaching it hope and desire trod out too soon in the mire,34
Life the frail joy35 that regrets36 its briefness, life the long sorrow37,
Love the close kinsman to hate and its freedom but bedfellow38 of Fate.39
Then in40 my anguish I reached41 out for knowledge, light on my midnight,
Light on its42 symbols of dream, strength of the thought to redeem43,
Yea, was it light44 He permitted45, this thought that is tangled in darkness?
Ignorance sees by46 its own record of47 sense and of48 stone.
Ignorance building49 its schemes50 and its dreams on a basis51 of error,
This was the mind I had sought fashioned out of His nought.52
Alphabet53 hieroglyphs of the reflexes life had54 engendered,
Spasms of matter caught in55 a luminous56 figment57 of thought.
Lo58, is not God but myself, Death’s euphemism fictioned immortal,
Nothing eternalised bare, yet as if one who is None,
Death yet for ever alive, an Inconscient troubled with seemings,
Matter tormented with life, a Void with its forces at strife?
O by my thought to escape from myself out of thought into Nothing,
Thus I had hoped to dissolve, rapt in some featureless59 Bliss,
Rending the illusion I made to be immutable60 and formless and timeless,
This dream too now I leave, long not even to cease.
Into numb61 discontent I have lapsed of a universe barren,
Goalless, condemned to survive, a spiral62 of matter in pain,
Now have I known myself as thy63 boundless finite, thy64 darkness without end65
Shadowily self-lit, grown content to strive and66 in vain.
Fire that travellest from immortality, spark of the Timeless,
Why hast thou come to my night, unbearable67 Idol of Light,
Ah, from what happier universe strayedst thou kindling my torpor?
Pass68, O spirit of Light, now perturb69 not my vastness of Night.
Later edition of this work: The Complete Works of Sri Aurobindo.- Set in 37 volumes.- Volume 2.- Collected Poems.- Pondicherry: Sri Aurobindo Ashram, 2009.- 751 p.
1 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: The Inconscient
2 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: The Inconscient
3 Fire who
4 the
2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: this
5 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Lo, I am
6 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: and I live
7 Matter
8 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Death
9 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Shadow
10 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: burn
11 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: in stars
12 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: as they err
13 1972 ed. SABCL, vol.5: a
14 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: of
15 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: my
16 All these worlds
2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: O all my worlds
17 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: you who
18 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: you
19 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: tranquil
20 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: incised
21 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: you
22 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: you
23 towards
24 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: deep
25 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: I the Inconscient have passioned for life and its beat and its glory,–
26 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: that
27 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: O
28 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Pulse
29 its
30 In 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2 instead of devoured the devourer stands More hopeless I suffer
31 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Racked
32 is
2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Life? or
33 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: my
34 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: down by Time in the mire?
35 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: this joy
36 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: weeps for
37 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: this foot-path for sorrow
38 comrade
39 Alternative Stanza:
Boons for a shortlived sweetness were given me – hours that were tortures,
Hope more blind than my night, desire for deadly delight,
Joy that outlasts not its moment, vivid and barren,
Love a close kinsman to hate, freedom a minister of Fate.
In 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: instead this line there are five lines:
Life, this embrace of a death treasuring some transient breath?
Boons of a shortlived sweetness twisted and turned into torture,
Hope more blind than my Night, desire and its deadly delight,
Bliss that is small on the wings of a moment, vivid and fragile,
Love grown a kinsman to hate, will made an engine of Fate.
40 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Torn with
41 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: cried
42 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: my
43 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: and a power in the Light to redeem
44 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: knowledge
45 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: gave me
46 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: reading
47 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: in
48 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: in
49 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: tracing
50 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: plans
51 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: canvas
52 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Mind this half-light in me born, like the glow of a morrowless morn?
53 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Autographs
54 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: has
55 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: into
56 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: luminous
57 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: figments
58 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Nay
59 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: tensionless
60 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: immobile
61 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: my numb
62 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: spirit
63 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: this
64 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: this
65 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: darkness
66 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: without end and
67 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: an unbearable
68 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: Thou
69 2009 ed. CWSA, vol.2: perturb