sent the same day; I do not understand why you did not get it.Sri Aurobindo
Writings in Bengali
Translated into English
A Letter to Mrinalini
I received the letter day before yesterday; the shawl was sent the same day; I do not understand why you did not get it.
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At present I have not got a moment to spare; the burden of writing is on me, the burden of works regarding the Congress is on me, and also that of settling the affairs of Bande Mataram. I can hardly cope with the work. Besides I have my own work to do which I cannot neglect.
Would you listen to a request of mine?
I am passing through very anxious times, the pressure from all sides is enough to drive one mad.
If you too get restless now, it would only add to my anxiety and worry, a letter of encouragement and comfort from you would give me much strength, and I can overcome all fears and dangers with a cheerful heart.
I know, it is hard for you to live alone at Deoghar, but if you make your mind firm and rest on faith, then the feeling of sorrow cannot dominate your mind.
This suffering is your inevitable lot, since you have married me.
At intervals there is bound to be separation, because unlike ordinary Bengalis, I am unable to make the happiness of the family and of the relations the main aim of my life.
In these circumstances, what is my dharma is also your dharma; and unless you consider the success of my mission as your happiness, there is no way out.
One thing more: most of the persons with whom you are staying at present are our elders, and even if they say hard things or pass unjust remarks, do not be cross with them.
Also, do not believe that all that they say is what they really mean, or that they say it with a purpose to hurt you.
Many a time words come out of anger without thought; it is no good holding on to them.
If you find it absolutely impossible to stay there, then I will speak to Girish Babu to arrange for your grandfather to come and stay in the house while I am away for the Congress session.
Today I am going to Midnapore. On my return I will make all arrangements here and then proceed to Surat; that will probably be on the 15th or 16th. I will return on the 2nd of January.