The Mother
Agenda
Volume 9
It's the physical being educated.
When the vital and the mind are there, they use the physical as an instrument for their will and whims – usually it has no independent life. So then, in the space of a few days, a few weeks, it has been educated all over again. It remembered all the experiences it had and sorted them out again, so to speak, and it has reached a sort of homogeneity wholly centered around the divine Presence.
It has had several experiences of this Presence.... Spontaneously, for the body, it's a “conscious Light”; a conscious Light it sees everywhere, feels everywhere, whose presence it constantly feels. But once or twice it saw a figure. That surprised it a lot and it wasn't too reassured (!), it wondered if it wasn't an imposture or... But a great Presence (gesture like a human figure). The details of shape weren't there, but... It was like a concretization meant for the physical, of this conscious Light which was there, you see, and was as if concretized (gesture of gathering) into a shape which was luminous, too, which could be seen, and with such power! Above all, it was like the Power of the Lord – it was awesome. And the body's impression was that That could do anything. There was nothing That couldn't do. I can't say arms or hands or legs could be seen; it wasn't that, it was a shape, but as if with a head and shoulders: a shape, you understand. And to begin with, as I said, the first time the body saw it, it was slightly alarmed: “What's this? Is it an imposture?...” Then, as always, the “Thing” came over it and said, “Quiet, quiet, quiet ....” Not words: like waves. So it kept very still, and it felt an awesome Power. It came when the body was very still and had stopped worrying, and That seemed to be telling it, “This is how I act on people.” And it was a sort of concretization or materialization of this conscious Light. You couldn't see any eyes or a nose or a mouth or anything of the sort: it was an immense figure (“immense,” anyway the part that was like a head was touching the ceiling).
I saw it twice, and both times it was when I was calling the Lord so He might act; for some reason I was calling the Lord onto someone or for something, and the body was like this (gesture of aspiration or call). And once I saw it behind someone. It was like ... (Mother clenches her two fists) like condensed Power.
Two cases (but one was especially clear) in which things didn't seem to be as they should have been; there seemed to be a disorder to set right, and as always, I was making contact – simply making contact.1 And that was when I felt it became that Power. I didn't say anything – didn't say a word, didn't make a gesture, didn't say anything – and the circumstance changed. It wasn't here: it was something physically happening elsewhere. And it was changed in that way.... There was another case in which it was someone's will and thought that needed to be changed – but that I don't know, I haven't any news yet, I don't know.
The development seems to be moving towards that: an action on people and on the earth, quite physical.
Several times, when the body was... simply disgusted at its pettiness, its incapacity, its ignorance, its stupidity... (laughing) the response was very fine: “Be quiet! It's not you who do things.” So the body wondered (laughing), “But then, what use am I?!” It said... I don't know, I got the impression of the place where two currents are joined (you know, when you connect one current with another?), the impression that the body was like that, that was its use!... It had the sensation of being like one of these tools... (Mother points to the electric socket).
A socket.
(Mother laughs
silence)
That is to say, becoming conscious of its very existence instantly hampers the work. It ought... not to be aware that it exists.
In fact, that's what makes it ill, that's when it's conscious of itself.
(silence)
Just today, I saw a German lady who worked for a while in N.'s dispensary. Naturally, she noticed he lacked everything he needed from a modern viewpoint; and for a reason I don't know, she has to go back to Germany, but she wants to come back with the full equipment. And she asked to see me before leaving. I'd never seen her before. She came, I told her a few words about what she should do, then she didn't want to leave anymore! She was sitting. So I simply did as I usually do, that is, the body... (I don't know how to explain) seems to disappear, then the Lord (gesture of Descent)
...And then a thing which has happened, I don't know, maybe hundreds of times: poff! she got up and... (laughing) did a “pranam” and left. Hundreds of times it's happened! And you know... it's a Supergoodness (I don't know how to explain it to you), something so marvelously loving and good and... but it's awesomely powerful! I think what terrifies them is the power. It happens all the time. The body goes like this (gesture of standing back or disappearing), and the Presence is there. And I simply look. But nine times out of ten, they take flight!
Some are used to it and are on the contrary very happy, but they aren't many.
1 Between the Force above and the person or circumstance.