Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 2. 1938

Letter ID: 2186

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

September 11, 1938

Guru, so I am installed in X’s palace! But my reaction was positively unpleasant. I spent 2 or 3 hours in the afternoon and all the time I was feeling lonely, as if I were far away from you. I was quite happy in my little nook! My medical work may suffer. Mother didn’t object because I didn’t object!! All these thoughts smashed my Muse...

Mother would much prefer that you should be in your own room and she pointed out the objection about your work, but X said you were quite agreeable and, when both you and he seemed to desire the arrangement, she could not very well go on with her objections. Also what she agreed to was your staying there at night, not all the time.

The atmosphere also seemed so foreign to me, I don’t know due to what.

The atmosphere of X’s room is not likely to be good for you; I should say – it cannot be a quiet one at any rate.

I almost feel my old room is preferable to this kingdom. If you could find some trustworthy fellow to stay, I would rather go back to my room.

You should find somebody to replace you and go back to your own room.

At the same time I don’t see what was the necessity of this guardianship. Is it against theft or against Y entering his rooms and arranging?

Doesn’t Mother think my medical work may suffer?

She does.

Couldn’t you write something in my notebook tonight?

I don’t expect I shall be able to do so, but will see.

Chand writes there is no letter from you. So, one word, Guru!

Well, well! (That’s one word twice repeated).