Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 2. 1938

Letter ID: 2157

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

July 25, 1938

[Sri Aurobindo and the Mother]

Guru, ah, you do relieve me! If you had said that the first day, I would have written a poem! Your first day’s answer gave me the impression that it doesn’t matter much if I can’t write every day.

I said nothing about that, except that the repetition couldn’t be avoided in constant writing. My answer was about the idleness – saying it was not good, but if you find writing poetry impossible every day, you must do something else and not keep the time vacant.

I think you enjoy playing with us a little, Sir, or perhaps that’s your divine way?

I have no such bad intentions.

... Freed from the long-standing obstacle, I have been feeling extremely happy these two days... The thought that I shall be able to send you poems again and get back a touch from you is apparently the main cause of joy. I wonder if behind this there is the awakening of the inner being as well.

It is certainly the inner being that has the feeling.

Today I wrote a poem and it gave me great joy – but I couldn’t write the last two days, so I feel gloomy. How do you explain it?

The joy is good, but the gloom is not.

My days would have been still brighter, perhaps, if I had kept my vital free!...

The vital needs something to hook itself on to, but for a sadhak women are obviously the wrong things for it to hook itself on to – it must get hold of the right peg.

Twice X brought something to eat for me and Mulshankar. I couldn’t ask her to stop it. Is it necessary to tell her? Won’t it drop by itself if I keep myself right?

If you keep yourself right, yes – but if the attachment continues, then it is better to break off the occasion.

“Worlds have begun

To unroll like a time-wave,

Each measured beat

Filled with an ecstasy

Of its golden heat.”

I fear you will shout against this “heat”.

Certainly, the heat would make anyone shout.

Kantilal is steadily improving. He joined work today. Has been advised not to strain himself.

[Mother:] He came back immediately. Could not stand it. Did you tell him that it is bad to sleep in the vérandah? He is asking for a room on medical grounds.

You didn’t say anything about S’s extra milk. Shall I ask him to resume soup leaving it to his choice?

[Mother:] He has got his milk all right. But it seems to me that the soup was better for his health.