Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 2. 1937

Letter ID: 1860

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

February 24, 1937

How is my aspiration for greater beauty, depth, etc. “vague”? How to be more precise when one doesn’t know the meaning of what one is writing?

Whatever the reason it is not precise, it is only a general formula which in practice might mean a hundred different things.

The result of the Darshan was very queer: a heavy inert sleep during the day and night. The waking hours passed in vacancy. I felt like a corpse without a soul; even the thought of death passed across my mind.

It looks like a plunge into physical or sub-physical inertia.

Perhaps it was due to fatigue: keeping awake on the Darshan night, for decoration?

Might be. Fatigue sometimes brings that.

... Or have you done something in the sub-conscient physical?

Done what? Raised up the subconscient in the form of a blank? Had no such intention.

Some people had peace, joy, etc. I am not discouraged, but would like to know what happened, and pray to get me into a better state.

Of course this kind of emptiness often happens when the physical is being directly dealt with – the important thing is not to remain in it, but to make it a passage to a new force and better consciousness.

By the way, do you think I should seriously take up French?

I don’t know that it is necessary just now.

Naik proposes that I join the French class they are organising...

Naik’s class as proposed means an active part for everybody. It depends on whether you feel like taking such a part.