Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 2. 1936

Letter ID: 1749

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

October 12, 1936

You wrote to A.K. that “there is an increasing pressure now for sadhaks who really intend to do sadhana, to stop feeling, living, acting according to the ordinary nature.” I don’t know if your “pressure” includes in its action my precious self. If it does, I would be glad; if it doesn’t, I would pray to be included. Even if I don’t feel the pressure, it matters little; let it act surreptitiously and my nature break, what?

The pressure is general, but necessarily it is felt or received without feeling it in accordance with the readiness of the sadhak. It includes everybody who can be included and aims at drawing in those who can’t.

Is it possible to sanction some tea? I am rather ashamed as almost immediately after intending to do sadhana, I want to live according to “ordinary nature”.

You can ask Champaklal, Mother is giving a chit.

As you know the stomach remains at the level of the umbilicus, but, in T’s case, it has descended into the pelvis and is sitting snugly there. It is called ptosis or atony of the stomach. As for the cause and treatment, we have to get the proper history...

Can it have anything to do with the fact that she was fat in Hyderabad, took a medicine for becoming thin and did become suddenly from fat very thin?

S says – “I have no hunger”, but when pressed he says, “Yes, I like food better now.” There is S!

He says the Mother has entered his stomach and is occupying it!! I say, confidential you know! Such secrets are precious.

M’s vomiting etc. is not a new thing, it was his companion long before the accident. I shall study his case, then take him to the Surgeon. So why are you worried, Sir?

Because it is accompanied by the ghost.

One thing – P says A is getting back his old ill health and “fears” a relapse – but A is not likely to acknowledge. Attributes it to T-strain and T-strain to D.L. gap. Rather clever? If you get a chance to send A without letting him know the indiscretion – P recommends rest – he is probably right.

Goodness knows what inspired you to pick up such a blessed place for your Asram! A most hopeless hospital with hardly any facilities! A heaven indeed for a Supramental colony! About M, we are wavering between cystitis and nephritis – which could have been settled in a second, in a well-equipped hospital.

Had no medical standards in view when I came to Pondicherry – nor any views about establishing an Asram. A supramental colony obviously ought to have a first-class hospital, but no such colony was then intended.