Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 1. 1934

Letter ID: 1218

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

November 10, 1934

My birthday falls on the 17 th. Hope my name is there?

It is there. On the 17th after 12.

About five minutes before the end of the evening meditation, I felt such a pressure on the head as if it would burst or I would tumble down. I was then forced to open my eyes to relieve the pressure. Was it because my capacity to contain the Force was limited?

Probably the accumulated Force became more than the physical being could receive. When that happens, the right thing to do is to widen oneself (one can learn to do it by a little practice). If the consciousness is in a state of wideness, then it can receive any amount of Force without inconvenience.

I had a dream that I had gone home. My mother seeing me after a long time clasped me and pressed me so hard that I got afraid and began to call you. Is it that my vital went there or that the vital spirit of my mother came here and attacked me in this way?

It is probable that it was not your mother at all but a vital Force taking- her shape so as to have a hold on you.