Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 1. 1934

Letter ID: 1160

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

January 18, 1934

C asked me whether I’d like to take up supervision work in the House-painting Department. But it’s a whole-time work, so other duties have to be given up. What should I do?

It may not be whole time. Speak to Rishabhchand and see what can be arranged.

In connection with that spirit, may I ask you if it was actually my father’s spirit even when it had no resemblance?

But if it had no resemblance, why did you take it for your father? It may have been only an ordinary being of the vital world.

Sometimes it appears that all efforts and aspirations are simply like so many stones thrown into the sea. And I feel that there is not a drop of devotion in me for you... I want some busy work that would carry me along with the stream. How to face this situation?

Mother says “Beware of what you talk. Also a certain kind of thoughts. It is very often talks one has that bring in this condition throwing one into the most ordinary and dry physical consciousness.” Recover your reading tendency, work and get rid of tamas.