Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 4

Letter ID: 1040

Sri Aurobindo — Roy, Dilip Kumar

December 23, 1947

I am sorry you got hurt over this incident, I certainly never intended anything of the kind; I did not understand that what you suggested was for Subbulakshmi to sing to us in my room. I suppose I unconsciously took it for granted that some such arrangement as I proposed was in your mind. There was certainly no idea of a personal rebuff to you.

I am glad you have got over the reaction created by what happened. I trust it will never come and I do not think it can really come to any true or irresistible necessity for you to leave the Ashram and the Yoga. The constant recurrence of ego movements is not a sufficient reason for that; for that happens to everybody until the true inner release comes. Moreover, all Yoga necessarily demands renouncement of ego and its replacement by the discovery of one’s true spiritual self. I am unable to share your idea that all Yoga is impossible for you. There is something in you that truly needs and wants it, and where that exists, the impossibility cannot be.

My love and blessings – that will always be there with you, independently of all circumstances and happenings. As regards your letter to the Mother, she has long known and understood your difficulties, they need not prevent the light from coming: her feelings towards you remain the same and when the light does come all misunderstandings must disappear.