Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 3

Letter ID: 741

Sri Aurobindo — Roy, Dilip Kumar

May 19, 1936

Glad to learn you may write something on the Hinduism problem. I have written to Dhurjati quoting this – hoping this may induce you to write after all – to preclude shelving (or rather to attempt it abortively?)

It will give us much light. We are all very eager for it. For such a long time I have not got anything from you – working at this ten hour-a-day – dry notation business with no sense of Divine contact. Off and on the dejection-surge came saying, “What were you doing? Do you think that by such ayukta karma [work inharmonious with yoga] your consciousness will change – fool!” Again and again I rejected it. But when except for the joy of creation – vital one of course – I could not get at last I succumbed, and in the grip of sadness and suffering and doubt and what not. So a letter on Hinduism and spirituality will be like rain to thirsty sere earth. For I see no way to turn to for relief.

I shall see what can be done. For some time however it has been difficult for me to put myself to any sustained intellectual work, because I am strongly taken up by a push to finish inwardly in myself what remained to be done in the way of transformation of the consciousness and, though this part of it is terribly difficult and arduous, I was making so unexpected a progress that the consciousness was unwilling to turn away from it to anything else. So much hangs on this, the decisive mastery, the power to receive the difficulties of others as well as my own (those that are still there, physical and other) that I was pushing for it like Mussolini for Addis Ababa before the rains. However, any night when there is a lull, I will see.