Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
Volume 2. 1934 — 1935
Letter ID: 587
Sri Aurobindo — Roy, Dilip Kumar
April 1935
I was not irritated and I am sorry if my perhaps too vivid expression about the W.P.B. gave you that feeling. Your letter gave me the impression that mine had displeased you and that you interpreted it as a condemnation of yourself as unfit for meditation and consequently for Yoga. That in fact was what you wrote and I had to protest against the imputation of any such idea to me. I also wrote protesting strongly against the idea that I condemned poetry and other things of the kind as inconsistent with Yoga or considered them of no value (as well as the misconception that the Mother disliked music and condemned literature, etc. or I may add, the idea that Mother and I have never suffered and do not know what suffering is). If I felt that I had to repudiate these groundless imaginations with some energy it is because they are constantly recurring in your letters and you make them a sort of food and justification for your depression and despair. It did not mean that I was irritated with you but only that I wanted these constantly reiterated misconceptions to cease. I have no objection to your writing to me what is in your mind, but you on your side must not mind if sometimes in reply I point out what is wrong in the ideas and attitude that you express – for if I do not do that, they will persist and repeat themselves always and stand in the way of your sadhana.
There is no reason why you should go away. The one thing that would justify your going would be if you lost all faith in me and all regard for me and no longer considered me as your Guru. So long as you have the feeling that you express, I do not see why you should leave me.