Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Correspondence (1933-1967)

Letter ID: 19

Sri Aurobindo — Nahar, Prithwi Singh

November 3, 1934

Mother,

For more than a fortnight every time when I come from the Pranam or rather just after I receive Your Gracious Touch I feel a sense of great nourishment affecting even my physical body which feels strong and weighty though light. And when in Your own way You press playfully with Your fingers on the opening point of the spinal cord I feel something coming within, something subtle that makes my inner being overflow with causeless joy – but what it is I do not know or can guess.

The sense of nourishment (it is a feeling that a new substance is created within) is so apparently powerful that even when I am a little unwell and weak it completely dominates with its sense of joy and security.

I should like to know what it all means. From the way of your Touch I sometimes feel that it is meant to open some recalcitrant part. Although I am losing fast all my faith in personal effort and realise more and more that You are doing Sadhana for us and that the only effort worthwhile is to call down Your Grace and aspire for Your guiding Light within, yet if it is advisable to let me know I shall also aspire as best I can to make that part open to Your Light.

I sometimes feel «tremors» at night as before but now my body is almost able to bear the full impact without shaking and at those times I fervently call You, Mother, which completely destroys all lurking fears that cast their shadows sometimes.

With deep devotion

Prithwisingh

As you suffer from ill health, Mother presses the nourishment of the divine strength and health into your physical being, renewing its substance with that.

Sri Aurobindo