May 9, 1914 (PM 050)

This prayer reveals to us the right attitude in the face of difficulties.

May 9, 1914 JUST at the moment when I felt the imperious need for the regular resumption of these notes to come out of this invading mental inertia, my physical organism sustained a defeat such as it had not known for several years, and for a few days all the forces of my body failed me; I saw in it a sign that I had made a mistake, that my spiritual energy had given way, that my vision of the all-powerful oneness had been obscured, that an evil suggestion had succeeded in troubling me in some way, and I bowed down before Thee, O Lord, my sweet Master, with humility, conscious that I was not yet ripe for the perfect identification with Thee. Something in this aggregate which constitutes the instrument I can put at Thy service is yet obscure and lacking in comprehension; something does not respond, as it ought, to Thy forces, deforms and obscures their manifestations.

A great problem presented itself before me and my illness covered it with its veil and prevented me from solving it. Now that I live again in the feeling of Thy Unity, the problem no longer appears to have any meaning and I do not understand it very well.

It seems to me that I have left something far behind me and that I am slowly awaking to a new life. I would wish that it may not be an illusion, and that the profound and smiling peace may return for ever.

O my divine Master, my love aspires after Thee more intensely than ever; let me be Thy living Love in the world and nothing but that! May all egoism, all limitations, all obscurity disappear; may my consciousness be identified with Thy Consciousness so that Thou alone mayst be the will acting through this fragile and transient instrument.

O my sweet Master, with what an ardour my love aspires for Thee.

Grant that I may be only Thy Divine Love and that in everything this Love may awake powerful and victorious.

Let me be like an immense mantle of love enveloping the whole earth, penetrating all hearts, murmuring to every ear Thy divine message of hope and peace.

O my divine Master, with what an ardour I aspire for Thee! Break these chains of darkness and error; dispel this ignorance, liberate, liberate me, make me see Thy light.

Break, break these chains…. I would understand, and I would be. That is to say, this “I” must be Thy “I” and there must be only one “I” in the world.

O Lord, grant my prayer, my supplication rises ardently towards Thee.

The text above is quoted from the Third Edition, 1954 (translation by Rishabhchand Samsukha)
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