January 5, 1914
I HAVE been sitting since a long time before this blank page unable to make up my mind to write, all in me being so mediocre, without value or savour, hopelessly commonplace. Not a single idea in my head, not one feeling in my heart, a complete indifference towards everything and an insurmountable dullness.
How can such a condition be of any use?
I am a veritable zero in the world.
For the rest, all that has no importance. And provided Thy work is accomplished, Thy manifestation takes place and the earth becomes more and more Thy harmonious and fruitful kingdom, it matters little whether I accomplish the Work or not.
And as it is sure that it will be done, I should have no reason to trouble myself even if I felt so disposed. From the depths up to the outermost surface all this, my being, is but a little dust; it is only natural that it should be scattered to the winds without leaving a trace.”
The text above is quoted from the Third Edition, 1954 (translation by Rishabhchand Samsukha)
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