Yesterday I wrote to you about my good inner condition. But, outwardly, something made me talk a lot. In spite of my knowing that such unnecessary speech would disturb the inner and higher experience I could not check it. Kindly explain what made me go on?
It is always something in the physical or the outermost vital that does that.
You have to learn not to allow the speaking to alter your condition or else to recover it as soon as the interruption is over.
To remain aloof from the talk is what you should always do. The detachment is the first necessary condition for being free.
My writing comes out more easily through silence than my speech does.
Talk is more external than writing, depends more on the physical and its condition. Therefore in most cases it is more difficult to get it out of the clutch of the external mind.
To remain concentrated during a talk is very difficult.
That is very usual. It is only when the consciousness is very strongly established that it remains while talking.
You have said: “But at this stage it is much better to keep yourself separate and look with a certain indifference at the doings of others.” I suppose it means also not talking. What is actually meant by the last few words of your statement?
Not to mind what they do or interest yourself or criticise or intervene — but leave all to the Mother.
Now it is becoming possible to observe silence during mental pursuits also. But it is rather a slow and tedious process. While talking I have to utter each sentence to myself first and then only express it.
Good. But afterwards that process will not be necessary. You will remain in the silence automatically even when speaking.